Ok well I think it's safe to say my computer is slower than a snail in a race, and probably needs some additional memory. It's creeping along at a ridiculous pace. For example, I went in to check my email and in the time it took for the page to load up I was able to walk to the kitchen get myself and my daughter a glass of juice and when I came back to the computer it was still 'thinking'. Errr! I know it's not my computer's internet connection, I've already tested it. Seems fair to say that my computer needs a boost. I'm going to attempt to try to install the memory myself so I don't have to pay $300 to have it installed. I've never done this before but I think I can 'make it happen'. I am an Apple girl, always have been since elementary school when the computers in the classroom were reletivly new and featured a black screen and green text. LOL now that's going way back :-) Anyway I've been using my computer time to research how to add memory to my computer to make it go faster. I think I feel confident enough to do it. Before I install the new memory I have to back up and burn to CD / DVD. That is not going to be fun with a slow computer ~ ufta!
If only it was easy to install more memory in my mind. Yesterday I forgot to put on deodorant and didn't realize until I started smelling myself ~ uh. :-/ I think that means I need to regroup and start prioritizing as well as slowing down my pace a little bit. Ever go to the fridge and forget what you opened it for in the first place. I did that in the bathroom only I had to go and forgot, well rather thought I was in there to get something. Than 'ding' the urge to go again hit me. Maybe TMI? I'm just saying it like it is. I could blame it on Mommy syndrome, or lack of sleep but honestly I think there is a more truthful explanation.
I think it's safe to say that I need to take a break from blogging for a while. Summer is coming up, and my daughter wants to go to the park all the time. The Mr. is in the process of building one of those cedar swingsets but it's been raining about every other day which is frustrating because he is trying to put a coat of water sealant on the wood before erecting the whole thing. Eventually it will get done and I can foresee us spending a lot of time in the backyard. So rather than schedule my postings and set my blog to auto pilot I think I'll just unplug for a while. No idea how long. I think I'll still muster up some time to read a few blogs here and there but I'm not going to be posting anything new for at least a week, maybe two.
Remember my finding fitness blog post about how I need to get back in the saddle again and do some spinning. Well that is still a goal that I'm reaching for. I need to get back into it. Enough excuses. I am far from loving my body right now and the thought of putting on my swimsuit this summer freaks me out. Yes I'm mom gorgeous but a tad dissatisfied with the bulge of tummy fat that plops over the tops of my paints when I sit down. It's not making me feel so great. To honest for you? It's real and so am I. Now I confess to doing my crunches right before I fall asleep. Yeah the timing is weird but I have to believe it's doing something. I've been out for a walk a few times but need to step it up. I don't drink coffee and don't seem to find the time for tea. The past few times I've heated up a tea bag, the tea was cold by time I returned to it. Microwave? yuck. The point of tea is to relax and enjoy for a minute or two. All this to say, I'm still finding fitness.
I need to get a schedule in order around here. My to-do list, not the 'honey do list', is getting longer by the day. I love the 'me time' blogging gives me and enjoy connecting with all of you but things need a boost around here. Afraid of what might become of things on the home front if I don't let go of some unnecessary things for a while and rework them in when able. I hope you understand. I hope you don't forget about me.
My two and a half year old might possibly be out growing her nap? I don't know when the nap kicks the bucket but I do know her naps seem to be getting shorter and shorter. No longer do I get a two hour block in the middle of the day, down to one baby. Did I mention that I'm reading a new book that hopefully will make me a better organized mom. The book is called, The Busy Mom's Guide to a Happy, Organized Home, by Kathy Peel. She is one of my favorite authors. I hope to have some resourceful tips to share with you all as I dive into the book. Hopefully after my journey through the book I'll be better at a lot of things. I'm going to need a tip or two once the nap actually does kick the bucket and I loose that precious time block in the afternoon. Trying to get things done with both kiddos up throughout the day will be a challenge. I guess the little guy will be napping less and less as he gets older and so the day to day schedule evolves.
Some personal things that I've been dealing with... Without giving out details a few of my family members have cut ties with me and it's been hurtful. Two years of drama have come to a screeching halt ending up in a hurtful slap in the face, door slamming break up. I'm left confused and hurt. God is working on me getting me through it. I know he works all things for the good and I'm trying to find the good in it. It's hard because I can't even love them from afar and they live so close in proximity. I'm laying down my feelings at the foot of the cross and letting God work behind the scenes. I've forgiven and all I can do now is wait and see.
Totally unrelated to what I've mentioned above, my brother and sister-in-law are moving out of state in less than two weeks on a job transfer. I'm thrilled for them but sad to see them go. They will be 11 hours away by car (if driven without kids and taking many breaks). I'll be missing them terribly. Lot's going on in the family for sure. I've been involved in a woman's bible study at my church, The Inheritance by Beth Moore. It couldn't have come at a better time in my life. I'm getting so much revelation out of it! So much so that I can't go into it all here. I highly recommend this and or any other Beth Moore bible study! You can do several of them at your own pace at the Living Proof Ministry's website.
The Mr. is back in the thick of it, fighting crime in the city I mean. He is feeling much better. Soon I suspect he'll have a rookie riding with him. He loves being a training officer. I think there is a graduating class that will be reporting for duty (their internship) in a few weeks? The kids are great. Keep a look out b/c I don't know when my next post will come but I hope you don't stop following during this pause. Cheers friend!! I hope to see you around these parts soon enough :-)
